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everybody relax
05:35
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dear I envy your easy joy
my fear, my many spilled tears over nothing
in cynical scythe or knife over these years
i've grown cynical and weary
I change the water and replace
the flower in my room
reset in the dark an old bottle of pure life iced tea
and it's withering in part because there's not been a warm day since june
but i remember the day it bloomed
I was with you, in spirit not in person
brilliant eyes, I admire your desire
a spark that lights a smile, a love, a fire
a golden glimmer glancing something so still
a thousand lacy words all seeping down a wire
the thrumbering bass shakes like an earthquake
a tone who whirs alone under glints of disco twilight
but this is not my fate, there must be some mistake
I can't imagine this lonelnines could ever unwind
and i've never told anyone in my whole life
how i really felt about anything
I slept with my makeup on, I woke up all alone
I woke up all alone every day of my life
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pony
02:22
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unconditional love is not unconditional
unconditional love is not unconditional
unconditional love is not unconditional
what if i disappoint you.
(give them all you've got, yeah!)
(give them all you've got!)
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BIDDY FOX:
W.R.E.C.K.!
W.R.E.C.K.!
W.R.E.C.K.!
W.R.E.C.K.! (cuz i'm a nervous...)
LiL ECHO:
ain't nobody care bout the person that i be
pass the dope around call that joint custody (<- GREATEST LINE IN HISTORY)
i dont give a fuck if you dont like me
pass the fuck away and your soul i will reap
im bumping HollisterJeans when i pull up to the scene
no mask on my face aint no body step to me
all the smoke fill the air all the diamonds round my neck
im a real fuckin corpse im a real nervous wreck
BIDDY FOX:
W.R.E.C.K.!
W.R.E.C.K.!
W.R.E.C.K.!
W.R.E.C.K.! (cuz i'm a nervous...)
theres a nervous wreck
with her neck all blessed
and a blasted past
and sensibilities crass
and shes scared of being heard
and shes scared of being hated
cause maybe no one gets her
maybe all her style’s dated
and a bloody blue time
with a dancing gay crime
i’ll stop hiding it away
if you’re so inclined
and shes scared of being heard
and shes scared of being hated
cause maybe no one gets her
maybe all her style’s dated
before i met you i was gonna give in
stop making my own shit just give into the rhythm
but i was lonely and there was a whole world
it’s 2022 and you’re still alone girl
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the art punks
01:48
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theres a part of me that wants you to just start writing and never stop
because you dont understand, im in love with you and your words
and i could never love you as a person unless i knew what you were thinking
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bzzzzzzzzzzzz
01:47
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my mind is often seized
by sordid fantasies
neglecting I, replaced with we
but for all our corporate dreams
i laid and fell asleep
my self all full of bees
the form I want to be
I can never let you see
the queen lined us all up in rows
i can never tell you about the meadows
billowing sea of of golden flowers
pathetic dreams of combination powers
i wish i couldn't talk so i couldn't sound stupid
i wish i could be content with not being lucid
i wish i could fly and feel the sun on my chitin
i wish i could go out and sell my writing
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BIDDY FOX:
i've been awake for too long
pretending not to be alone
four in the morning
I could take sleeping pills if I willed them to work
I used to have a friend who was scared of the dark
i tried to explain the darkness was the backdrop
the blank space, and the blank space connecting us
I'm walking outside
i am never gonna be home, always gonna be alone
at night we all stand under the stars
and we think that distance tears us apart
but if we're both in the dark in different places we're really in the same place
cause light is just an interruption, paint on the black canvas
the infinite void that exists outside our vision
you shouldn't be scared of the dark, you should live in it instead
and feel together curled up under the stars
PIGEON SCRATCH:
and maybe it was ok
you existed for a while
but now you're gone
you're not coming back soon
that's the long lost truth
that's lovelorn uncouth
and i fell asleep gently
glowing under the moon
BIDDY FOX:
I am imagining a kid on a forum
circa two thousand and nine
falling in love with the words on a webpage
forgotten the second he logs off
I am imagining a girl in a chat room
circa twenty nineteen
by this time those words are forgotten
but she foolishly falls just the same
who is this voice talking to me? are you that part of me that cares about other people in that deep annoying way? that always hides every time I really need you? I got over my anxiety, I taught myself to speak like a New Yorker and not a shy net-dweller, but you, little bunny rabbit, you run to your warren whenever you have to talk to somebody and I'm left so cold and aggressive. I filed down my teeth like the bunnies in the bloody cartoons I used to draw. I have learned to accept the taste of meat. Why haven't you, sweet love, my id, my shadow? We used to sit together and talk late in my room, and I'd draw you all soft in my notebook. It was comfortable, and you refused to leave. I would hate and pity you, if you didn't clearly love so much.
did you ever read The Northern Caves? my friend esther told me about it, it is a visceral portrait of a part of history, it makes for good cosmic horror too, and it's so deeply familiar, it could very much be something real, even the unbelievable parts are a little believable, the way real obscure history like that is, because the truth is muddied and obscured, it can never be all that clear, can't it? everything we know for sure were just taking someone's word for it, but now i've descended into cliche, i'm sorry. of course you can't sleep, you've got your shoes on. take them off, smoke up a little, relax, maybe nothings happening tomorrow but even geniuses need to sleep.
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we only ever held hands
I wanted to do more (i wanted to sniff poppers)
I wanted to hear you out
I wanted to tear you out
and every time I pushed you away
I only wanted to pull you closer
my minds kind of fucked that's the way it works
cus when you can't stop thinking you kind of move fast
you learn to not really get over anything
cause you're just onto the next
back when i was a puppet of sex
i think you're still that probably
If i was a creep i'd say your name in this song
if i had a gas mask fetish and bunny ears so long
play my fucking guitar for fifteen minutes
for some cute young queers to fuck each other to it
but you're a real person so I'll never do it
even though if I know you you might approve it
and it was kind of like
recreating an accident
when you did it again it sounded like a mistake
but it was pretty sick the first time
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Biddy Fox Middletown, New York
you can wear my wings while i shower but the halos on metered hours
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