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2. |
how to be less scared
02:21
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all me and my friends got together to make stupid decisions
all me and my friends come together in surgical precision
i wish i were taxidermy, tender careful incisions
we were wild boys, all on our last revisions
and my dear
we’re working on a cure for fear
definitive here
in my bones wish you were here
open wound
i can love but i cant heal you
ambulance
let’s calm down and speak our silly truths
i was a teenage resolute paladin
i read william s burroughs and the IDW my little pony comic
i sat in somebody else’s room and listened to awful music
i imagined i was in another country in conversation making oblique references
and saying out loud cat puns that only worked in text
the sort of thing that would have embarrassed my younger self
but also brought forth a kind of envy that comes
from being repressed and seeing someone doing what you wish you could be doing if you only let yourself
and my dear
we’re working on a cure for fear
definitive here
in my bones wish you were here
open wound
i can love but i cant heal you
ambulance
let’s calm down and speak our silly truths
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3. |
to never sleep again
03:27
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would i be so afraid to sleep again?
would i be so content with catlike feelings?
would i be a dreamer in a dreamlike vision?
would i be a little less stressed out?
although I dont know about the detailed plan
i cant run away cus i now understand
in digital worlds that echo softly
you can see a vision there of an animalfool.
i rode on a train with a sketchbook in my hand
scratching lines with a dry pentel
i dont wanna clarify if words or image
ive got a bad imaginiation theres little difference.
but they made me think of angels.
would i be so afraid to sleep again?
would i be so content with catlike feelings?
would i be a dreamer in a dreamlike vision?
would i be a little less stressed out?
although I dont know about the detailed plan
i cant run away cus i now understand
in digital worlds that echo softly
you can see a vision there of an animalfool.
(here is my world)
(here is my heart)
(here is my world)
(here is my heart)
oh-so-quiet shapes of
things that pass so in and out
you know they say thats tunnel vision,
you know they dissuade that decision.
but i feel twenty feelings
and i think two hundred thoughts
if i could pace in tiny circles
if i could be so neon glowing.
would i be so afraid to sleep again?
would i be so content with catlike feelings?
would i be a dreamer in a dreamlike vision?
would i be a little less stressed out?
although I dont know about the detailed plan
i cant run away cus i now understand
in digital worlds that echo softly
you can see a vision there of an animalfool.
would i be so afraid to sleep again?
would i be so content with catlike feelings?
would i be a dreamer in a dreamlike vision?
would i be a little less stressed out?
although I dont know about the detailed plan
i cant run away cus i now understand
in digital worlds that echo softly
you can see a vision there of an animalfool.
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4. |
dawn beats
02:39
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wake up!! the going got tough
and i can only ask if this pace is enough
its so rough around the edges its so calming and dim
if it was like this would prayers even touch the sin
and i can believe
that there is good in everyone
and i can believe
that there is hope in a mile run
but i’ve found through the years
when upsets reign and tease my fears
they adjust so young and pastel pink
in trembling debt to costs they think
all is soft and all is solemn
quiver mansions on greek columns
the part of you in gif klonoas
if memories dont show where you was
alienation aviation
if foxes and birds spoke in too many words
and i called my love and when xe picked up the phone
we were talking but really i was alone
and i can believe
that there is good in everyone
and i can believe
that there is hope in a mile run
but i’ve found through the years
when upsets reign and tease my fears
they adjust so young and pastel pink
in trembling debt to costs they think
all is soft and all is solemn
quiver mansions on greek columns
the part of you in gif klonoas
if memories dont show where you was
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5. |
st. louis song
02:04
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i cant trust
anyone whos happy
cus in time i cant believe it, if i
had that same opportunity well
i would never seize it
and mara stiebel
if youre hearing this
you were right the whole time
st louis's prettier than they say
my stomach is my enemy
and the dread is its ally
my stomach is my enemy
it keeps me up at night
i am working on becoming angel
so theres only stuffing inside
doing my impression
doing my best impression
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6. |
beach song
02:03
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in a grassy field
she becomes falsehoods
she embodies them
she worries about them!...
amid snowy peaks,
she becomes falsehoods
she embodies them
she worries about them
a dolores deer stirs from
heavy sleep, oh easy breeze
and all and none and all or none or some
and she walks out of that
little room she sleeps in and she
steps onto the beach
leaving hoofmarks in the sand
in a grassy field
she becomes falsehoods
she embodies them
she worries about them!...
amid snowy peaks,
she becomes falsehoods
she embodies them
she worries about them
but youre half fictional you are
lies with a pen i can say that again
if you understand
i dont understand...
and with a face full of makeup
and a voice like matthew good
lets make choices lets make choices
understood!...
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7. |
twizzler guts
02:45
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if we are to become burglars
we are not to be restrained by architecture
you can put padlocks on a heavy oak door
but its still right next to a big glass window
if we are to become burglars
the city will be our medium
you can use sharp utilities to sculpt it
you can find use in its laws and corners
rum and coke, twizzler guts!
rum and coke, twizzler guts!
two dolls sit identically
two dolls sit identically
gummy bear heart, whisky breeze
gummy bear heart, whisky breeze
two dolls sit identically
two dolls sit identically
and if i cant find my way back
if i miss my stop and
end up in newark
where are all the remaining payphones
(and what’s the chance of me remembering your number?)
if you cut me i wont bleed
emotionally, emotionally (stitch it back together)
good as new, good as new
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bitten by a snake!
it asked too many questions.
it will happen
let it happen.
it could get sadder
it could get scarier
we are aging but we are still young
youve got guts, kid!
we're leaving old online accounts
sable white, sawed off at the end
activity for years which just stops (stop)
as though we are dead
we are a dark veteran of idyll
we are a dark veteran of idyll
they call it despair
but thats not what it is
we ran away to start anew
we crossed the lake from bellevue
and all these girls with black hair
might reconstruct all these bad news
I used to wait at train stations all day
to avoid thoughts like these
but that little girl in me
is pounding at my door
twas fetishized
in the psychological sense
a coalesced coelecanth
of twisting signals,
frenzied emotions,
negative under any other circumstance
become joyful
with help from this
situation
and i got a stuffed animal
it is roughly the length of my torso
and i sleep with arms wrapped round it
and i sleep like a dog
if you count all the experiences
your life makes a map
it is impossible to know yourself
through quiet study
i live the life of a cynic among cynics, but i still believe in love at first sight.
i'm tonguetied, not knowing where to begin...
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9. |
texas panhandle song
05:37
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digging me apart cus i wont and i dont know
fire burning heart its the kill its so still, so
tires spinning hard on the tar weve gone high, low
distant in a mirror its a trembling white glow
digging me apart cus i wont and i dont know
fire burning heart its the kill its so still, so
tires spinning hard on the tar weve gone high, low
distant in a mirror its a trembling white glow
avant garde these things come hard i feel like shit, slow
i calm down i still feel like hell. so?
im thinking of getting a shrink to sell me seroquel, so
sittin on a thinkpad, dell, hear the bells tho
(i drove all across texas not)
(all across texas just the)
(part that sticks up tho)
(the part with amarillo)
ive been having a lot of
fucking trouble with the retained shame.
songs plaguing the radio
riding the right lane thru amarillo
(i drove all across texas not)
(all across texas just the)
(part that sticks up tho)
(the part with amarillo)
digging me apart cus i wont and i dont know
fire burning heart its the kill its so still, so
tires spinning hard on the tar weve gone high, low
distant in a mirror its a trembling white glow
avant garde these things come hard i feel like shit, slow
i calm down i still feel like hell. so?
im thinking of getting a shrink to sell me seroquel, so
sittin on a thinkpad, dell, hear the bells tho
avant garde these things come hard i feel like shit, slow
i calm down i still feel like hell. so?
im thinking of getting a shrink to sell me seroquel, so
sittin on a thinkpad, dell, hear the bells tho
caught in the act but we made a pact
took the trash out
whats all the twee shit sugar crash about?
avant garde these things come hard i feel like shit, slow
i calm down i still feel like hell. so?
im thinking of getting a shrink to sell me seroquel, so
sittin on a thinkpad, dell, hear the bells tho
avant garde these things come hard i feel like shit, slow
i calm down i still feel like hell. so?
im thinking of getting a shrink to sell me seroquel, so
sittin on a thinkpad, dell, hear the bells tho
you made maps of how id flee
demons not to follow me
they were like racetracks
but i didnt follow them
i didnt even get to the start
i promise to stay with you
i promise i wont leave
i promise to stay with you
i promise to stay
(i drove all across texas not)
(all across texas just the)
(part that sticks up tho)
(the part with amarillo)
(i drove all across texas not)
(all across texas just the)
(part that sticks up tho)
(the part with amarillo)
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10. |
city (birthday song)
03:02
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im an average girl
ive been calming down
im an average girl
ive been coming round
pushing down on my gut
pushing down on my gut
but as i was saying
acidbugs are
singing quotes from
songs that quote from
crystaline and
polygonal
signals are in
narehate
im an average girl
ive been calming down
im an average girl
ive been coming round
pushing down on my gut
pushing down on my gut
im an average girl
ive been calming down
im an average girl
ive been coming round
[interpolation of "Gemini (Birthday Song"]
When we're on different sides of the globe
I thought we'd keep our veins tangled like a pair of mic cables
And if there ain't enough slack to reach
That we'd solder them together, 'cross oceans they'd stretch
Our faces reflected in separate windshields
And all our body hair pricked up in elephant eyelash
Should we be tempted by thief or by saint
It seems I leave and you stay to crowd the cage and curse
But don't regret the done dirt
There is no life plan set
You just swallow the coal and follow your breath until death
Now even if the will to sleep persists
I can't cause a harsh cloth, it grazes my blisters
(and um, dont, dont leave me a message on my birthday about how much of an asshole you think I am, thanks.)
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flutterbat kigurumi
04:32
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i was nevermind and you were never yours
(i was locked in by automatic doors)
there is no mind and there is no force
(i was not alive i was not alive i was not)
i was butterflies and you kept score
(if i should flutter bats to the back of the store)
and im fuckin with my boots in a cold dark core
(who says girls can't be hardcore???)
sand off the pixel edges the 3d printer made
write off the kingdom coming the 3d printer came
i can sing high and u can sing low
(i was just getting ready to go)
if i look like a girl we'll get ready for the show
(i was just getting ready to go...)
and time travel days are time travel weeks
are time travel years and time travel decades
time travel seconds are time travel seconds
are time travel seconds are time travel seconds
sand off the pixel edges the 3d printer made
write off the kingdom coming the 3d printer came
asterisk flips you off asterisk.
flip the page upside down for the answer key.
additional information can be found in our pamphlet.
asterisk blushes cutely asterisk
you can download my vanessa carlton mp3
as time goes on i get more and more scared and confused
if you give this man a ride sweet memory will die
killer on the road
i was butterflies and you kept score
(i wish i knew how to be quiet)
and im fuckin with my boots in a cold dark core
(i wish i knew how to be quiet)
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12. |
young valentine
02:39
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and if only i knew
where it was i wanted to go,
and if only i knew
and if only i knew...
checkerboards, checkerboards, on and off
black and white black and white black and white.
checkerboard, checkerboard, checkerboard
black and white black and white black and white
god damn i dont know if i can
take this one take this one again
but ive been stopping when they tell me to tell me to
the doctors talk and talk but they wont do they wont do
AND I KNOW THAT JANE CANT HEAR ME!!!
AND I KNOW THAT VAL CANT HEAR ME!!!
AND I KNOW THAT WHEN I SAY THAT I
NEVER CARED NEVER CARED NEVER CARED
checkerboards, checkerboards, on and off
black and white black and white black and white.
checkerboard, checkerboard, checkerboard
black and white black and white black and white
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13. |
seagulls
04:13
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broken glass in tatters on the floor
gets crushed gets shattered gets worn.
and i walk and it scatters more and more
there rooms in tatters past doors.
and i want, i want (ooh)
the lights in the city blue
through the window creeping
sorry for watching you sleeping.
well i never lie
and i never wake up
i'm in my head watching tv
well i cant help moving
well i knock things over
they reach the ground eventually
hundred thousand ways of being
live your life knowing them all
you live your life knowing nothing at all
you live your life like renard
we are klein bottle bodies!
we are manhattan in june!
we are a pretty girl with expensive shoes and a haircut she got out of a book
we are a pretty girl who looks like a boy
we are a dear we are a cat we are a human being
we are not human we are not human we are not human
and i want, i want (ooh)
the lights in the city blue
through the window creeping
sorry for watching you sleeping.
well i never lie
and i never wake up
i'm in my head watching tv
well i cant help moving
well i knock things over
they reach the ground eventually
(every human's half fictional...)
seagulls, my god!
i can hear them across the beach, calling calling calling!
they take me
and take me
down...
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one chord hate song
02:36
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it's because youre a bad person.
youre a bad person.
youre a bad person.
youre a bad person.
i'm totally wired
and im still tired of you
tired of you.
i'm totally wired
and im still tired of you
tired of you.
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NICOLE:
sometimes i look up in the night sky, and it’s a starless sky.
it makes me wonder how come?
a starless sky is like a pond with no fish, where did they all go?
and when it’s a starless sky over a fishless pond, it feels like it’s just me and the world. staring up at a canvas with no paint. it’s as mesmerizing as it is sad, in a way.
it makes me wonder where the stars decided to go.
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i was crying
i was crying
been camping
well i was on a day trip
i was so, if you really cared
lately i been camping
i dont know whats happening im really scared
i fall asleep with the stars above me
i dont know whats happening im really scared
old friend howre you doing in michigan
old friend howre you doing in australia
old friend howre you doing in kentucky
old friend howre you doing in minneapolis
i dont want to join the army
i dont want to get a job
i dont want to live this life i
i dont want to be a boy...
i dont want to be this person
i dont want to know the reason
i dont know if i can try this
i dont know if i can improvise
my head hurt like a warehouse there was
no room left to spare
i had to cram so many people in to store
everything in there
and all the fat skinny people
and all the "nobody" people
and all the somebody people
and all the somebody--
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the night we met I knew i needed you so.
and if i had the chance i'd never let you go.
and there is a girl who never goes out
shes trying to sleep but the ac is too loud
and though she is doe with the fallen down clouds.
heaven knows im miserable now
please tell me that you can hear me
please tell me that you can hear me
please tell me that you can hear me
please tell me that you can hear me
when i was young i lived life in the sun
when i turned older i became winters daughter
back then when i was writing a love song a day
i never had an understanding of the taste of love anyway
and there is a girl who never goes out
shes trying to sleep but the ac is too loud
and though she is doe with the fallen down clouds.
heaven knows im miserable now
and there is a girl who never goes out
shes trying to sleep but the ac is too loud
and though she is doe with the fallen down clouds.
heaven knows im miserable now
i was on forums learning all sorts of shit.
i was pretending i had friends i didnt
its what they say about simulacrum its true
rememberin rememberins the earliest i knew.
and there is a girl who never goes out
shes trying to sleep but the ac is too loud
and though she is doe with the fallen down clouds.
heaven knows im miserable now
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alaskan husky!
02:57
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its just my job to wake up
i dont really live an ordinary life.
its just my job to wake up
we dont really live an ordinary life.
and i swore all i could wear were pretty little sweaters
and all i ever drew were pictures of my boyfriend
i had all these cute little thoughts about
living on the side of a mountain in colorado.
its just my job to wake up
i dont really live an ordinary life.
its just my job to wake up
we dont really live an ordinary life
if i could see all the little things i see now,
maybe I'dve been proud.
& if the day was an ordinary day
then yesterday could have come in an ordinary way.
(listen now, you can't come back.)
(listen now, you can't come back.)
(listen now, you can't come back.)
(listen now, you can't come back.)
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ridgewood revised
02:42
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I know i dont say a lot and what i say is lame
theres a pretty little headshot calling my name
you can ask a dirty/Jersey question i could answer with lies
but if you ask me id have ridgewood revised.
abstractions are
abstractions and
inactions are
distractions
infractions of
loner works of thought
bigger things ive bought
truer roles ive sought
I know i dont say a lot and what i say is lame
theres a pretty little headshot calling my name
you can ask a dirty/Jersey question i could answer with lies
but if you ask me id have ridgewood revised.
yeah how very frightening
how very enlightening
we got choruses unlicensed
gun club samples
making your voice sound
higher on purpose
i swear to god im never a liar on purpose
welcome to broken glass club
ive never been to any other clubs but this one
the research ensures I know everybody here
but they dont know me no they dont know me
ive got car insurance
I d-drive to H&M and
I pick up some objects and
I just w-walk out the fuckin door
a-and I take em
I know i dont say a lot and what i say is lame
theres a pretty little headshot calling my name
you can ask a dirty/Jersey question i could answer with lies
but if you ask me id have ridgewood revised.
I know i dont say a lot and what i say is lame
theres a pretty little headshot calling my name
you can ask a dirty/Jersey question i could answer with lies
but if you ask me id have ridgewood revised.
I know i dont say a lot and what i say is lame
theres a pretty little headshot calling my name
you can ask a dirty/Jersey question i could answer with lies
but if you ask me id have ridgewood revised.
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me and shinwoo
03:09
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youre such a cherub dear
youd look so pretty in black
you could rock
an upside down cross
i've gotta perform measurements
on what's between your ears
theres too much van gogh
you might not be able to keep both
but when doomsday comes without a whisper
will we stay stable or flicker?
if we wept wilted or worried
I dont wanna be in a hurry
I'm not someone to be known
i am not this queen on that throne
If we spoke in Soul/Seoul and solos
no one ever could know or would know
they found out the
exact chemical composition
of the prehistoric oceans
it's identical to human blood
i could go off and write
a concept record about you
but for now a song
will have to do
but when doomsday comes without a whisper
will we stay stable or flicker?
if we wept wilted or worried
I dont wanna be in a hurry
I'm not someone to be known
i am not this queen on that throne
If we spoke in Soul/Seoul and solos
no one ever could know or would know
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22. |
mayday
03:30
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huh, huh, huh yeah okay.
huh, huh, huh yeah okay.
huh, huh, huh yeah okay.
huh, huh, huh 123 go.
coming down the stairs down from the roof
our drinks in hand to leave the room
and if i could go home with you
i wonder what id see you do
and i know youll say "i know what you'll say."
(and i don't know if you still love me.)
stop just a second now,
common sense and let it go
when youre left and so alone
thats what you will never know
calm for a minute though
common sense and let it go
quiet so alone
thats what you will never know
stop just a second now,
common sense and let it go
when youre left and so alone
massachussetts never know
calm for a minute though
common sense and let it go
quiet so alone
thats what you will never know
and i know youll say "i know what you'll say."
(and i don't know if you still love me.)
coming down the stairs down from the roof
our drinks in hand to leave the room
and if i could go home with you
i wonder what id see you do
stop just a second now,
common sense and let it go
when youre left and so alone
thats what you will never know
calm for a minute though
common sense and let it go
quiet so alone
thats what you will never know
stop just a second now,
common sense and let it go
when youre left and so alone
massachussetts never know
calm for a minute though
common sense and let it go
quiet so alone
thats what you will never know
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24. |
angelorum
01:42
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on little wings i fly to things
i take my notes and cling and cling
to eat and die ouroboros ring
a little pet for kings of kings
in kisses pale from faces true
i made you smile a laugh from you
now im alone the dusk is blue
and pink and salmon brown
i just wanted to help...
i just wanted to give advice
is it selfish to try?
disbelieve if you must
but i dont care what i want
i know it's selfish to haunt.
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